Reclaiming my Time, Energy & Sanity

 

Below is a piece written by my close friend Calleesha Teel. She is on a self-exploring journey and recently encountered an experience in which she was faced with a decision to  jeopardize her future, or take control of the situation and let it go.

Practicing What I Preach

I’m a big believer in the saying often used by my great friend Umar Muhammad, “Transparency builds trust.” I am one of the most open people once you get to know me, because I want others to learn from my mistakes & experiences. We don’t all have to learn the hard way, but if my story can help someone that’s all that I care about. This is a prime example in which I hope someone can learn from what I’ve been through and avoid any type of situation of the sorts.

Lately, I have been putting my happiness as my first priority, and I have tried my hardest not to let anything get in the way of that goal! However, I almost jeopardized my future due to the actions of another. On July 3, 2017 I celebrated my 26th birthday! I was ecstatic to be amongst 30+ genuine friends and family members that gathered to make my day very special! The next day, I went to pick my car up from one of my close friend’s house – I didn’t drive to the dinner b|c I didn’t know how much I wanted to drink, and I don’t play about drinking and driving.. Anyway, when I got to my car, I looked at it and noticed that my car had been keyed – all along the driver side of my car & some on the hood!!! I cannot start to describe the level of anger I felt, b|c I immediately knew who did it. I was shaking, crying, & I could barely catch my breath.. In that moment, I did not care about my future .. I did not care about the consequences of my actions .. I just wanted to put my hands on someone. Where I’m from, you don’t get away with doing stuff like this. The old me would have found out where she stayed and made that drive to handle my business. When you have certain things instilled in you, it’s hard to deter from reacting when you’ve been disrespected on a level you’ve never experienced. People often think that they can do whatever to you because you treat them with respect and smile a lot like they won’t get mollywhopped! They see you striving to be something great and want you to stoop down to where they want you to be.

Since that day I have been struggling internally about what to do. Then I had to remember that I always tell people that other people are not worth their energy and definitely not worth jeopardizing their future. When you have someone that is almost 40 years old, has children, & a job that finds enough time to destroy your property over something you have no control over, or even want any parts of, what does that tell you? What it tells me is that the person has no morals, is not driven, and is so focused on me and trying to get me off balance that they can’t see how low they are stooping. & we all know what it was over – all of which is currently irrelevant to any aspect of my life. lol

I have been on a spiritual, self exploring journey, and I pride myself on showing respect to every person I interact with, until I am disrespected. Once I am disrespected, my pride comes into play & I just don’t tolerate disrespect from ANYONE! So not reacting in which I feel is a justified and reasonable manner given the circumstances was taking a toll on me. It took me a while to regain focus.. and when I did I realized how many other people I put in jeopardy who were willing to ride out with me if I decided to go the alternate route. There futures are not worth jeopardizing over someone who is not being productive enough during the day to worry about bettering themselves. When you are a threat to someone else, or they are jealous of you, they will do anything in their power to get under your skin and to make you get off track.

That’s just not something that I am going to allow. Up until I decided to share this story a couple of days ago, I was still torn about what I wanted to do. I decided to use the negative energy to continue doing better, because my better is definitely coming. I was actually looking into seeing if I could get the marks buffed out of my car, but there’s no need to invest into that when, in a couple of years, I will be able to buy a car of my choosing. I am growing daily – spiritually, mentally, & emotionally. I have gotten all of the negative people and factors out of my life & I have genuinely been the happiest I’ve been in an extremely long time.

This is not HALF of what I’ve been through over the past few years, but this was when I knew that I had grown to a point that I never imagined that I would get to! If nobody else is – even though I know a lot of people are – proud of me, I definitely am. I take pride in saying that I chose me in this situation.. I chose to protect my name, my future, my sanity.. I chose to set the example instead of always telling others what they should do. I want to be about what I talk about! When someone wants to do harm to your property when you’ve literally done nothing to them, you can say one thing for sure .. you have POWER! How you want to use your power moving forward is up to you!